One reason that I started this blog was because something interesting happened to me back in 2009. All of a sudden, I started to hear a voice deep inside me that didn’t sound like me. I mean, it sounded like me, but the things that this voice said to me where not what I would say to myself.
My voice speaks words of condemnation, of shame, and fear.
But this voice was different. It was a golden voice. A voice that spoke words of hope, of life, and of a love that somehow I’ve missed in almost thirty years of being a Christian.
When I would pray, this voice would remind me of scriptures that I hadn’t read in years. It would speak something to me, and then I would ‘coincidentally’ read a similar scripture that would sound very similar to what I had just thought/heard in my heart. To be honest, it freaked me out! Allow me to provide you with an example:
I was praying one day about a seemingly impossible situation. In my mind, I was convinced that God would do this, but I continued to pray for confirmation. All of a sudden, I heard in my heart this voice that said, “Believe me in this, it will be done as I said.”
I was skeptical thinking that it was my own internal voice that I heard. So, I asked God to put it in writing (i.e. confirm it with scripture). Later that day, a scripture popped out at me in Isaiah: “What I have said, that I will bring about; what I have planned, that I will do” (Isaiah 46:11). Sounds a lot like, “Believe me in this it will be done as I said.” Right?
Y’all! God speaks! Did you know that? I never did.
How had I gone so many years and not heard His voice? John Eldredge sums it up perfectly and simply: “Many good people never hear God speak to them personally for the simple fact that they’ve never been told that he does.” That statement sums up my walk with God until He turned it upside down (or perhaps, right-side up).
I hear from God quite frequently now. I guess you could say that we’re tight, He and I. And He has charged me with the responsibility of making sure that His children know that 1) He speaks and 2) how He speaks to me so that hopefully they will hear His voice too. I feel like I have neglected the last part of that charge – to tell people my experience of how He speaks – to some degree. I hope to remedy that oversight beginning with this post.
One of the ways God speaks to me is by throwing me what I call “bread crumbs.” Basically, he repeats Himself like a broken record, and sometimes I feel like He does everything but knock me upside the head to get His point across. Case in point:
I’ve had some pretty difficult talks with God over the past couple of weeks. He’s refining some things in my life and stretching me WAY outside my comfort zone. (By the way, I think growing pains are more miserable in adulthood than I remember them being as a child. OUCH!)
One of the things God is teaching me is that He is faithful. It hurts me to confess that I don’t believe what God says all the time. He’s just too good to be true, and I’ve been told my whole life that if something is too good to be true then it usually isn’t.
To remind me of God’s faithfulness, I chose a memory verse two weeks ago from Psalm: “Those who know your name will trust in you, for you, LORD, have never forsaken those who seek you” (Psalm 9:10).
Now, I check out what He’s done over the last week. (I am so excited to share this with you that I can hardly stand it!)
May 6 Verse of the Day:
Email I received this morning:
Is He not the coolest thing ever?