Be Still

“Wait…Be still,” was the faint whisper I kept hearing deep in my soul amidst the chaos in my mind.

But how can I be still when my world seems to be in falling apart?

I fight my flesh.
I fight the incessant need to interject into Your work.

It is best left alone.
You do not need my help.

Forgive me for not waiting well.

I pace about back and forth…
back and forth…
back and forth.

I am weary and exhausted. What I would give for a word from You.

A word of comfort.
A confirmation that You hear.
A sign of that You are working.
A sign that You – instead of me – are fighting.

At moments that pass all too swiftly, I have peace.

There is a confidence in You and in Your direction.
The boat seems steady.

But it is fleeting.

Another swell of worry, doubt, or fear comes raging at my little dingy.

I am being tossed about.

I am tiny in such rough waters.
I want to paddle, but it is futile in such raging seas.

I need Your protection from the waves.
I need You to steady the boat.
To keep it upright.

And I am reminded…

I need Thee.
Oh, I need Thee.
Every hour I need Thee.
Oh bless me now, my Savior
I come to Thee.

And so I come…

weary
worn
worried

I come with my mess.
I come distressed.
And I cry out to You.

Merciful, Lord.
Hear me.
Stoop down.
Rescue me.
For I am Yours.

I need thee.
Oh, I need thee.
Every hour I need thee.
Oh bless me now, my Savior
I come to thee.