Confession: I am struggling with sin in my life right now. And frankly, I am sick of myself…
Sick of being lazy.
Sick of not having energy.
Sick of being a victim of my body and mind.
Sick of letting my flesh control me.
I try to do better.
I mean…really, really try.
And something thwarts me.
Sometimes it is myself.
Sometimes it is outside circumstances.
But I’m sick of it.
So, I prayed this morning…
Lord, do I need more self-discipline or do I need more of Your strength?
I waited silently for an answer.
Then, a verse came to mind…
”…not by might shall man prevail.”
I opened my bible to the passage and read Hannah’s words of worship.
“the LORD has made me strong.” (v. 1)
“I rejoice because He rescued me. (v. 4)
“…not by might shall man prevail.” (v. 9)
Is that my answer?
God doing the work?
God making me strong?
God cutting the wicked off in darkness?
God rescuing me?
I don’t know what that looks like, frankly, because it is so ingrained in me, and in this culture, that I must WILL myself to victory.
I must do.
Then, two words roll through my mind.
No. No. No.
That can’t be right.
But I am familiar with those words. They repeat to me frequently most often in the form of Exodus 14:14. But today those words brought this verse to mind:
“Be still and know I am the LORD.” Psalm 46:10
That phrase “be still” in Psalms actually means to cease from striving; to drop; to relax.
Y’all, I admit, I don’t even know what that looks like other than looking lazy and giving up. Honestly, it looks like defeat.
So, help me out here….what does being still look like to you?